I need to do more posting. If I post, I can see exactly where I am going and where I have been. I started to have some hallucinations again which really scared me. How long do I go through this post-partum??? It seems as though it never ends and in fact, who knows when it even begun. Sometimes I feel like the seed was probably planted a long time ago. The good news is that I have not given up on my life. I joined Weight Watchers again which I really needed. I started to really feel like crap. I've certainly got food issues. But then again, what issues don't I have. At least I know it now with my therapy. I will get better. One thing that was kinda a bummer--the church called and said that they don't have room to watch an infant. So, no church for us there. I was looking forward to that. However, that was not going to make or break my week. I got my 5 year service award today. That was pretty cool--I was proud of that.